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Wednesday, April 15th, 2009
1:40 pm	Current Mood: busy Current Music: Peter Murphy - Dust (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 28th, 2009
10:27 am	I need to post more often. There are so many things that have transpired in my life that I have not recorded.  Prior to LiveJournal, I recorded my life events in a hand written journal.   Switching to on-line recordings has been more difficult for me to keep updated.  This is rather unfortunate.  I should be better at this.  I have accomplished so much, and I have been so happy lately.  These things should be written, so that when I am down, I can look back and say, "life isn't so bad."  My life has been perfect for such a long time, that I forget to take time to reflect and be grateful.  Of course, life isn't without its strange battles.  I quit smoking in June.  Cold turkey.  The event started about at year ago, when I was ill on my birthday with a horrid flu.  The cough did not go away.  It kept coming back.  I sounded like an 86 yo man when I coughed.  I would cough so hard that I would vomit.  This became quite embarrassing.  I have always veiwed myself as a somewhat healthy, athletic person.  But the way i sounded and my stamina to coughing uncontrollably ratio was unacceptable.  Near the end, around Dark Arts and the Utah Arts Festival, I had to abuse cough suppressants before performances.  There is nothing more unsexy than a scantly clad dancer hacking up a lung on stage.  So, June 22nd, I had my last bummed cigarette before dancing at the Arts Festival.  I have had to reinvent myself sortof.  My entire adult life had been spent smoking.  Smoking when I was stressed, smoking while drunk, smoking when deeply engaged in a conversation.  I had to learn how to deal with people that I felt were disrespectful to me.  I have revamped my list of people who are important to me.  I no longer feel like I need to sacrifice my self or my time to people that I don't really like, or that I feel don't respect who I am .  I can only do what I can do.  I am not responsible for anyone but myself and my own happiness.  If devoting time to someone was not rewarding, I cut them off.  I have more time to do what is important to me .  I gained the time that I spent smoking, and the time I spent with unrewarding relationships.  This has given me time to reflect love to Christopher.  I never want to take him for granted.  His love, and his support are so much tied to my happiness.  The holiday season has come and gone.  I am glad that chaos factory is 11 months away!!  Christopher's brother decided to stay with us while on leave from the Army.  He is stationed in Hawaii, the poor bastard.  So, he arrived at our home on Winter Solistice.  We decided to throw a small gathering A) in his honor, and B) for our friends.  Prior to our gathering, he was harrassing Ursa, our 1.5 yo cat.  She is admittedly a bitch, but he had her pinned in his lap, on her back.  She hissed at him and bit his nose.  He yelled, "You f*cking cat.  If you do that again I will kill you!"  Then he rung his hand around her neck, suspending her in air, shaking her.  Then threw her across the room.  In front of me!!  I was pissed, but contained myself somewhat.  Told him that Ursa is like my child, and he basically did that in front of me to my child.   This is Ursa's house, and she doesn't know you.  So, it should be expected that if you, a stranger,  pin an animal in its most vulnerable position, that she will retalliate.   If that behavior wasn't enough.... at the end of our party.  He threatened to beat up one of Christopher's best friends.  and told Randi that she was posturing with him because her arms were folded.  I was mortified!!!  So all our guests frantically left our home for fear that psycho-Army-drunken- asshole was going to let his fists loose.  Christopher tried to talk to Nick afterwards, but Nick was going to beat up Christopher.  I had a hard time sleeping that night.  I hope that Ursa peed all over his stuff.   I had to work Christmas eve and UNI was busy.  Tertiary staff were sent home for the "holiday" so I worked short staffed.  AFter a horrible day at work, I had to hurry and pack to drive to Cedar City.  No lunch, no dinner.  We arrived in CC and at 1:00 am, we went to Denny's for food.  I got a veggie omlette.  The next day, I had food poisoning.  The nausea and stomach issues did not go away.  New Years Eve was spent in the Emergency Room getting IV fluids pushed into my body because I was so dehydrated.  Not a good way to loose weight.  They suspect Samonella poisoning, but the lab screwed up, so I did not get a confirmed Dx. When Nick left, we had discovered he had drank approximately 200 dollars in alcholol, including irreplaceable bottles of wine.  For the past month, I have been working and dancing.  That is it.  I was on KUED January 10th for a  performance I did for a children's reading marathon.  My gothic BD troupe will be dancing in California in March for the Annual GothLa.  I am also working with Kevin on a Cabaret Burlesque troupe that will be performing in mid-February at Area 51.  It takes me a lot of time and energy to choreograph routines.  So, the second I get home, I go down to my newly renovated basement studio and make up dance sequences.  Eat dinner, and go to bed.   My resolution this year, is to get my body toned again.  I miss my 6 pack and firm fanny.  :)          Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Moby shuffled (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 25th, 2008
4:47 pm	The Text is difficult to read because I made the jpg version  of the flier super fast and forgot to watermark it.  It reads: Gothic Burlesque Cabaret Dancers Tryouts December 7th 1:00-5:00p Contact Brazenhussy@hellokitty.com to RSVP and get details.  I also made it smaller here on Livejournal, because the original is HUGE, and I didn't want to take up tons of friend page space.  I am not skooled in the ways of putting something behind a link.  : ( Current Mood: busy Current Music: Lux- Northern Lights (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 28th, 2008
1:22 pm	Put in the word "Halloween" and the year of your birth in Google.  Post your favorite photo.  :)  Bob Marley, surprisingly also shares my same birthday.  Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 11th, 2008
11:31 am	I'm a Lady!! Which Victorian Stereotype are you? created with QuizFarm.com The Lady 71% A Tramp 58% The Artiste 54% The Cad 38% (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 22nd, 2008
8:34 am	Help me!!! I tell people that my husband is a music snob.  He is!  He only likes what he likes.  I can tolerate all types of music but new country.  Or so I thought.    My coworker who sits right next to me is listening to the worst music set I have ever fathomed.  So far I have listened to the Beach Boys, a bad female vocalist covering Harry Belefonte, Counting Crows, The Monkeys, Neil Diamond. . . .  some of these artists I can handle if in the right mood, and in small doses.  I am feeling the urge to kill her ipod.  shit, Alabama just came on.   can you hear my pain?   Current Music: Alabama- don't know the name of the song (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 19th, 2007
3:24 pm	Got back from Reno Wiggles of the West Competition Woot!!!  3rd place for our Duet!  Current Mood: content (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007
5:56 pm	YouTube video link www.youtube.com/jeseenya One of my students posted some videos of my troupe "Delight!" (now DecaDance) at the BD festival.  We look amazing!  I am so proud.  The other soloists are students of mine (either past, or present). enjoy.Invalid video URL. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 26th, 2007
10:51 am	Mondays are strange My life is quite exquisite.  Things are going well.  My studio is becoming more popular.  I think that I may have to create another class, specific to fit certain venues, i.e. Jen M and I are in the "penciling in phase" for DAF, and I am taking 2 groups to competitions in San Fran and Reno.  Last night I was working on some choreography for a routine to a Muslimgauze song and I am SORE!  I helped my brother, James, move on Saturday so I am sure that was a contributing factor. I say that my life is going well, but there are a few things that need tweaking.  My job is riddled with drama.  The nature of my employment is drama, but the coworkers add a very draining aspect on top of the regular job duties.  Hopefully this will change soon.  Rumor has it that my department is going to be restructured.  Last week a member of my friendship circle attempted suicide via overdose.  This saddens me, for obvious reasons.  This person wasn't transferred to my facility, so I don't know how they are doing right now.  I hope better.   The other gripe I have is with my "friends."  Christopher is a very social person outside of work.  I am not.  I spend a lot of my social  energy at work and with dance lessons.  My history with close friends is bleak.  I am a best friend type of person, with lots of aquaintances and semi-close friends.  Christopher is the best friend/spouse.  Opening up to others takes a certain energy that I really don't feel the need for.  Because C is in need of social interaction, I need to learn how to be social in my private sector again.  My history is bleak because I tend to attract people who are demanding on my time.  I realize that friendships need interaction and dedication to keep them alive.  What I really want are friends without liability, friends who don't have drama and need to vent constantly about their problems to me.  In my freetime, I like to be physically active, I really don't like to sit around and chit chat.  I think that is why when I am with friends in a sitting and talking venue I drink.  I need to find some close friends who have a fondness to physical activity, that way we can have real interactions, not drunken ramblings.  On that same note, I have a certain closeness to my students.  We are active, and we are somewhat friends, but there is a need to keep our relationship Teacher/student oriented.  I am trying to run a business.       I went on a shopping spree on Friday unexpectedly.  Macy's in the Crossroads mall is liquidating their goods.  They still have a good selection so go down there and check it out.  Current Mood: content Current Music: DJ Cheb I Sabbah (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 7th, 2007
9:26 pm	DecaDance Yeah...  its been quite a while since I have updated here.  Last week I went to Cabo with my mother in-law.  We left the men home.  It was the most interesting and different "vacation" I have yet to have.  I am very close to Carol.  I have more intimate conversations with her than my own mother.  The weather was a comfortable 75 degrees, with whales coming very close to the shoreline.  Our resort was fantastic, right on the beach.  Carol was invited by a woman she met via her previous "on-line  business."  Jean is from Ireland but currently lives in Edmonton, Canada.  We called ourselves the fuck tarts and had many nick names for one another.  Jean was the Queen, but then became the Foghorn because of her loud snoring.  Carol was Sally Fields, then became Piddles, because she wet herself in white pants laughing so hard.  I was the Princess, then the artsy fartsy Parisian.   Jean was mostly overbearing at times.  Now I miss her.  I found a studio to rent to teach BD and other types of dance.  Classes started February.  DecaDance is the name of my troupe. I turned 34 yesterday.  Current Mood: peaceful Current Music: The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy video game (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 29th, 2006
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Tuesday, November 14th, 2006
4:39 pm	I just want to go home.  That is all I have to say.  Work is dull today.  I am wearing painful shoes.    Current Mood: bored Current Music: The Orb (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
8:01 am	Annwvyn's BD solo Utah's Annual BD Festival 2005 "Annwvyn's BD solo Utah's Annual BD Festival 2005" on Google Video Belly Dance Solo. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 28th, 2006
7:57 pm	Annwvyn's Bat solo DArk Arts Festival 2006 "Annwvyn's Bat solo DArk Arts Festival 2006" on Google Video Performed at Area 51 for SLC, UT Dark Arts Festival (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 13th, 2006
12:00 pm	updated Gothla Flyer I finished my costume for my solo for this show.  It looks like a cross between  Leelu (5th element) and a super hero outfit.  I cannot decide if I really like it or not, but it matches my vision perfectly.  and one should never doubt the initial gutt instinct.  hehehe.  whatever.  I am a little sad that my students are poor and cannot afford the workshop in order to perform with me.  I have one gal that is interested, so we will be doing a duet together.  something simple and with a routine that we have done before.  no stress right.   I am planning to dance to ThouShaltNot in other BD news.  I have been asked to start renting the studio instead of teaching for Kismet.  In other words, I am on my own now.  There are perks and there are pains.  I am concerned about the art feeling tainted by adding bills and responsibility to the mixture.  I don't dance for money.  I cannot put a price on my heart and my creations.  This can lead to vulnerability.  I need to get a business license and whatever shizel to be legit.  *god damn mc hammer song just popped n my head*  I will need to pay taxes on my earned income.  I will need to keep records.  I will need to write off expenses.  I will need to look out for myself.  I want to have students dance and not have to pay so much money for it.  I want to be able to say, "here is 55 bucks for your workshop and dinner fee so you can dance with me at the Gothla"  I have anxiety and worry that this will be more work than I am willing put forth.  I cannot give it up though.  I will miss it if I leave.     and finally.  I have replaced my cigarette addiciton to a gummy worm addiction.  I got a bad cold 2.5 weeks ago.  and basically was too sick to go get more cigarettes.  so I haven't had a smoke since tuesday august 29th at 11:00 am Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: compliation purchased at the Synthpop Fest for 3 bucks (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 6th, 2006
3:14 pm	Belly Dance Updates Gothla Flyer I will be performing at this event.  I am very excited that Tempest is coming to SLC.  I would strongly recommend supporting this event by going to the dinner and /or workshop.  The Parthenon is a wonderful Greek restaurant, if anyone is curious about the food quality.   In past news, the Belly Dance Festival was a success.  I am happy that it is over though.  This time last year, I was more depressed about it being over.  This year I am not.  I am pleased at the photos of me (I am so vain) that have popped up.  I made my costume for my solo this year.    Ryan took the best one of me in this costume.  I was going for this vintage look.  Ra took this photo while I was dancing with my troupe, Delight!  Sunday night. K.... that is the brief update.  Current Mood: awake Current Music: muslimgauze (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 7th, 2006
12:49 pm	Monday-ness Had a baby shower for my sister in law, Aleisha on Saturday. she had me invite 84 ppl, no one RSVP'd, and 22 ppl showed up. Overall, it was a good event. I am just happy it is over with. Now, it is the time to prepare for the Belly Dance Festival. I am freaking out a little over my solo. I want a vintage looking costume. I purchased some fabric last night and need to sew it up quickly. My solo is Friday the 18th at 8:30 ish. I am doing a slow controlled dance, and a drum bit at the end. I want to depress everyone in the audience to tears!! My gothic fusion girls, "Adya Shanti" are dancing Saturday the 19th at 6:20pm and my Master students,"Delight!" are dancing Sunday the 20th aroudn 7pm. I will be dancing with my girls again this year. I need to get my costumes ready for these performances as well. I have a doctor appt tomorrow, seems my bum hip is acting up again. Last week I was limping and thought that I should really buy a cane. it sucks to get old. http://www.kismetdance.com/belly-dance-festival/2006/performance-schedule.htm there are a lot of great dancers and performances going on this year. I am very excited for it. Current Mood: creative Current Music: my solo music (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 20th, 2006
5:11 pm	Me as an animated character. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 18th, 2006
4:03 pm	The Mid-Summer Renaissance Faire photo taken at the Cedar City Mid-Summer Renaissance Faire this past weekend.   It was a hot weekend, but it is always a blast.  I like that someone captured this moment on film, see the sword on my head, and I am either going into a back bend or coming out of it.   I got these really cool pants, that are very very wide and have leaf coins at the bottom of the legs.    A ren faire newspaper article http://thespectrum.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20060714/NEWS01/607140303/1002 Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Aphex Twin 26 Mixes for Cash (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 20th, 2006
5:45 pm	Romantic Entry Today is the 3rd year anniversary of Christopher and I being together. Initially we met a month prior at Santuary's May Fetish night. I went with bunny suit clad Andrew. C and I met on the dance floor. and I remember thinking to myself that he was cute AND a good dancer. I was wearing a red chinese print summer dress, and I curled my hair. Then we spoke to each other at the pre-dark arts festivities. Unfortunately I was broke at the time and was not able to attend that year... *insert sad face for missing David J and ThouShaltNot* Then, one obscure Thursday night we meet again. I was with Andrew and Mary that night, they had picked me up after work. I was sitting up on the high rise area overlooking the dance floor and drinking my molotov cocktail when he came running in. He sat across the way, and was with another girl. Our eyes met, and he came over and sat next to me. We talked all night pretty much, and danced as if we were the only ones on the dance floor. Funny, that night I also spoke to Jayme (sp?) for the first time, I had had a crush on him too. That night, I ended up asking Christopher for a ride home. The story goes on of course, but that is how it all started. We tell lay folk that we met at a church dance. Current Mood: loved (2 Comments |Comment on this)