Current mood:	hopeful
Current music:	compliation purchased at the Synthpop Fest for 3 bucks

updated Gothla Flyer

I finished my costume for my solo for this show.  It looks like a cross between  Leelu (5th element) and a super hero outfit.  I cannot decide if I really like it or not, but it matches my vision perfectly.  and one should never doubt the initial gutt instinct.  hehehe.  whatever.  I am a little sad that my students are poor and cannot afford the workshop in order to perform with me.  I have one gal that is interested, so we will be doing a duet together.  something simple and with a routine that we have done before.  no stress right.   I am planning to dance to ThouShaltNot

in other BD news.  I have been asked to start renting the studio instead of teaching for Kismet.  In other words, I am on my own now.  There are perks and there are pains.  I am concerned about the art feeling tainted by adding bills and responsibility to the mixture.  I don't dance for money.  I cannot put a price on my heart and my creations.  This can lead to vulnerability.  I need to get a business license and whatever shizel to be legit.  *god damn mc hammer song just popped n my head*  I will need to pay taxes on my earned income.  I will need to keep records.  I will need to write off expenses.  I will need to look out for myself.  I want to have students dance and not have to pay so much money for it.  I want to be able to say, "here is 55 bucks for your workshop and dinner fee so you can dance with me at the Gothla"  I have anxiety and worry that this will be more work than I am willing put forth.  I cannot give it up though.  I will miss it if I leave.    

and finally.  I have replaced my cigarette addiciton to a gummy worm addiction.  I got a bad cold 2.5 weeks ago.  and basically was too sick to go get more cigarettes.  so I haven't had a smoke since tuesday august 29th at 11:00 am